chamoise

...that was the longest dA hiatus in the history of my life. jesus, it's like i just forgot the site even existed. wtf.

well, i am sorry for this ridiculous absence of mine. i suck. if i have to give you guys an excuse, though, it would be because i am terribly art blocked and have no ability/desire to draw at the moment. it's a pretty bad block. i've tried playing games, reading my favourite book, listening to music, taking walks, and, of course, drawing something. but the results always came out forced and unsatisfactory, therefore i AM LEAVING U GUISE AND NEVAR CUMING ABCK!!!11!





haha just kidding. i won't leave dA. unless i die. which hopefully won't happen until i'm at least 30. anyway.
as i was saying, nothing seems to inspire me lately. it's terrible. i should be sitting at my desk with my trusty copics coloring away at some banal anime-esque piece, but i'm not. i should be polishing my skills at digital colouring in photoshop CS3 and trying not to look like a total amateur, but i'm not. i mean, even tristram by matt uelmen isn't getting me going. and that song is probably the most inspirational, soothing, and masterfully crafted musical composition in the whole wide world, most likely the universe. sure, i have like 10 WIPs lying around, but i just can't seem to finish them. i desperately want to, but unfortunately i find that, in my case, art blocks can't be remedied unless i just wait for it to go away. that's always what i've done when i got an art block. so until it goes away, do not expect much activity from me on dA.


well, even if i'm not quite active on dA, you have my last.fm to stalk. THANK YOU, MISS NAO, FOR MAKING ME A SLAVE TO THAT SITE.

www.last.fm/user/chamoise


feh...i miss drawing. ):

------------------------
Journal CSS made by caybeach
Brushes by gvalkyrie

Satoshi Kon.

One of the most influential animators out there, Satoshi Kon, has passed away.

It would seem there is little information regarding his death - only that he 'died suddenly' on August 23rd, yesterday. I admit, I wasn't a fan of his, but his death has surely struck the hearts of many. He and his movies will always be remembered. ):

------------------------
Journal CSS made by caybeach
Brushes by gvalkyrie

i'm going to be talking about silent hill. yeah, that's right. i am going to recount my experiences playing silent hill 2, right here, in this journal. be prepared for some fangirly epicness.
i will try to make this as spoiler-free as possible, since there are people out there who i want to play it with. _{yeah, i'm looking at you, you gorgeous asian girl.} and it would be a shame if, in the event that they do read this, a good part of half the game would be spoiled. so anyway, on to the goods.

the game starts off with the main protagonist, james sunderland, in a bathroom just on the outskirts of town. he's looking at himself in a mirror and doing some sort of weird pagan nose ritual. we do not know what the hell this means, and will probably never know. anyway.
after completing his little spell, he exits the bathroom, and there we have it. all the signs are in front of us - we see the fog, the decrepit buildings, and not to mention the totally deserted road. we know that we are in silent hill territory and that james is not going to be leaving anytime soon. so much for playing it safe, huh, james. _god

well, moving on. he begins telling a story of how he received a letter from a girl named mary, telling him to come to the town of silent hill, where they will consequently meet at their 'special place'.
the funny thing, he says, is that mary is his wife's name.
...his... dead wife's name.
okay, james. okay. if she's dead, then why are you even bothering looking for her? that letter could have been forged. someone could have just been screwing with you. but noooo, you think it's your dead wife because you are so whiney and unrealistic that you believe people come back from the dead and write to their lovers. i mean, the town is creepy as shit. wouldn't it be better to just--
OOPS. too late. james is so insistent on finding that dead wife of his that he just haaaas to walk along the secluded pathway leading to town. at this point you're probably sighing, noting james' almost cute stupidity. nevertheless, you carry on with the game. apparently, james suspects that his wife resides at a place called rosewater park. sure thing, blondie. _god

at the end of the pathway is a graveyard, where you will meet a seemingly paranoid young lady named angela. she warns you not to enter the town, claiming that there is, quote, 'something 'wrong' with it', but james doesn't really care because he really wants to find his dead wife and who the hell listens to dumb, crazy young ladies anyway.

so, going against angela's word, he finally enters the town.
he walks around, noting the ridiculous amount of fog, when suddenly--
a shadow.
oh shit.
james says he doesn't like that shadow.
not at all. in fact, it creeps him out.
so what does he do?
he investigates. _obviously.
several trails of blood (which, by the way, james pointed out as being such; oh, no, james. it's not blood. it's just ketchup) and copious amounts of fog later, he discovers the source of the creepy shadow.
turns out to be a fleshy, possibly once-human, cannibalistic monster who spews acidic-looking, toxic gas in your face.

james manages to kill it, of course. 'is it dead?', he asks. 'gee, i don't know, james,' i reply, 'is your wife dead?' _god

so after that, these creatures start appearing all over the town. james is so badass that he kills them all singlehandedly with a two-by-four, but it doesn't really detract from the creepiness of the setting, so you're still kind of freaking out. but yeah. there's definitely something 'wrong' with silent hill.

well, now that we know how dangerous it is, what do we do?
...explore more, of course. of course.

after much running about, james makes his way into the blue creek apartment. it has a nice name, but its interior is much less flattering. this area takes an assload of time to get through, because there are two separate buildings with three floors each, and each floor has minimum ten rooms. do the math and you've got at least 60 rooms - mind you, half of them have broken locks... but either way, you've got to scour all of them, and then even go back and forth between rooms just to solve random puzzles. but wait - upon entering a certain room, you find a man...

puking his guts out in a toilet.
oh. what a lovely first impression.
he says his name is eddie, and seriously, this guy is the dumbest ass you've ever seen. he's also a fat slob, which makes him seem like even more of an ass. he's also pretty inarticulate, and has bad fashion sense. so you can go ahead jot him down on your 'most disliked fictional characters' list. at least he doesn't tag along with you after you leave, but anyway, you're almost done with the blue creek apartments. yes, you say. freedom.

...except not. upon entering what you think is the exit, you barge in on a guy with an oddly shaped head, doing something very questionable to something that vaguely resembles a woman even though it basically looks like a mannequin with two sets of legs, i.e. not even human.





but really, what does pyramid head thing think he's doing, anyway? raping innocent little mannequ--

_{oh, shit.} he sees you. he suddenly loses all interest in his ladyfriend - he throws her down and she stops wriggling. he's coming towards you. oh, shit. you try exiting out the door you came from, but it's no use. it's somehow locked. you see a staircase at the other end of the room, but it's filled up with water. better try your luck and face him, as opposed to just drowning, right? _{i think...}
so you're stuck in this room with this red pyramid creature, and oh goddamn shit. he has a cleaver. it's big, it's shap, it's long, and that's what she said. all you can do is run around the room. attacking him is no use. he is supposedly immortal (coming from a fangirl's point of view, hopefully so), and will not die if you shoot him, but hallelujah, after running frantically around the room for a while, he gives up and goes down the watery stairway. battle done. great, you're alive! now you just need to focus on getting out of this blood-soaked, monster-infested town. what a pain. poor james.

you're finally out of the apartments - yes. you are free to explore the town once again. but hey, look - there's a little girl sitting on a ledge across the street. she seems pretty annoying, but hey, there aren't many humans in this town. wait a minute - she's familiar. oh, yeah, she was in the apartment complex! she stepped on your hand. man, did that ever sting. let's go talk to her.

james: 'you!'
annoying little girl: -gasp-
james: 'it was you, wasn't it? the one who stepped on my hand!'
annoying little girl: 'i don't know. maybe i did.'
james: 'what's a little girl like you doing here anyway?'
annoying little girl: 'huh? are you blind or something?'
(awkward silence ensues)
james: 'what's that letter?'
annoying little girl: 'none of your business! you didn't love mary anyway!' (annoying little girl runs off)
james: 'wait! how do you know mary's name?!'

ah, too late, she's gone. a pretty weird conversation, if i do say so myself. but ah, well, at least we know to stay away from her. just put her under eddie's name on that list of yours, would you kindly? very good. i mean, how bratty can a little girl even get? _god

it would seem that we're approaching rosewater park. in fact, we're nearly there! just run through a few roads, kill some monsters, go down some steps and...
and...
...mary?
is that...really you?



no, james, it's not. sorry, sweetheart, but this girl's name is maria. close, but not quite. her hair, clothes, and personality are the opposite of your dear wife's - but she looks a helluva lot like her. even her voice is the same...

alright, maybe it wasn't totally stupid coming here after all. you may be on to something... you just may be on to something.



...aaaaand that's all for now. i've gotten a little farther in the game than this, but i think i've talked/fangirled enough... _god



tl;dr - i love silent hill 2.



THE END

------------------------
Journal CSS made by caybeach
Brushes by gvalkyrie

EDIT: thanks to Goddess-Azura, it has come to my attention that numbers 141-149 were missing, so i've added some new themes to take their place.


1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Rainbow
6. Break Away
7. Heaven chamoise.deviantart.com/art/7-…
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Past and Present
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes (this one'll be dedicated to my sexyfriend. otherwise known as sugarcookie or maybe honeybuns. anyway, she wanted stripes SO SHE'S GETTING STRIPES.)
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. Note
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation
101. Killing Spree
102. Where'd You Go?
103. The Odd Couple
104. Forbbiden Romance
105. Don't Cry
106. Call Me
107. Late Nights
108. Boo!
109. Not Scary
110. Laughter
111. Yaoi (kay, i'm doing this one for Goddess-Azura just because i lav her. >:U gonna be mxm. <3)
112. Angel and Demon
113. Bath House
114. Symbols
115. Marked
116. Written in Stone
117. Stop
118. Freak Factor
119. Craziness
120. Ice Cream
121. Dango
122. A New Team
123. Breakfast
124. Dinner
125. Darkness
126. Puppy love
127. Furries
128. Cats and Dogs
129. Girls
130. Boys
131. Sleepover
132. Dogs away!
133. The Stupids
134. Monkey Business
135. Clouds
136. Fashion
137. Cute Girls With Guns
138. Bad girls
139. Just a break...
140. Kisses
141. Otherworldly
142. Ultimatum
143. Have It Your Way
144. Oblivion
145. Seeking Solace
146. Grim
147. Fantasia
148. Office Bitch
149. Surprise!
150. Make-up
151. Shoo!
152. Shocking
153. Ninja girls
154. Dress Up
155. Down With Furs!
156. Rockers
157. Festible
158. Japanese Animation
159. Bakas
160. Pain!!
161. Toe Stab
162. Cursing
163. Stupid Chair!!
164. Favorite
165. Animals Gone Wild
166. Cheerleader
167. Expressions
168. Cats
169. Bunnies
170. Lab
171. Diamonds
172. Chasing
173. Girls Only
174. Perverts
175. Sailor
176. Emperor
177. Jumping Rope
178. Aftermath
179. Things That Can't Be Fixed...
180. After Tomorrow
181. Not Anymore
182. Lurking
183. Stalker
184. Some Days
185. Love At Fist Sight
186. Family
187. Red Light
188. Hunter
189. Vampire
190. Bloody Sword
191. What If?
192. Graduation
193. Wind
194. Precious
195. Concentration
196. To Die For You
197. By My Lover
198. I Know
199. Candle fav.me/d2wncxd
200. Elements



...theme challenges. i've never tried doing one before, but i know that 200 pieces for a challenge is pretty freaking insane and will probably take a long, long time. that being said, it seems really fun. and the good thing is that it's pretty tough to get a 'block' or anything, since all the basic ideas are laid down right there for you. i like the thought of zero art blocks very much. o3o it will just take, like i said...a really, really long-ass time.


...I STILL REALLY WANT TO DO THIS
because i think i'm just crazy enough to try. but hey, i will probably be finished by the time i'm 21 and working at best buy or something so FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF


wish me luck <3


EDIT: OH YEAH.

-bolded out + underlined = completed (link will follow)
-striked out = just will not do


Started August 13th, 2010
Completed: 2/200



EDIT2: P.S. i'm not doing them in order. nope. because i am a rebel. SO IF I FELT LIKE IT, I COULD SUBMIT THE INTRODUCTION LAST LOL

...but i won't. anyway. just saying. last edit, i promise.

i talk too much BYE

------------------------
Journal CSS made by caybeach
Brushes by gvalkyrie